"A Glorious Darkness"
The darkness is a beautiful thing,
It's stars so bright and gleaming but ever so strange
coldness of your cheek,
Slightly burning but nothing you mind.
It's painful to look at the moon knowing its evil glare,
even though you don't want to you begin to stare.
You do and you are hypnotized by its beams, so bright and vibrant as
you watch gleam.
But alas come dawn the night has passed and all that is left is go on with life. By Brandon
Have you ever just felt so alone and unloved, but you knew you have everything? Have you ever been in a crowded room
but felt like no one was there? Have you ever sat there and cried until you fell asleep? Have you ever locked your self in
a room and screamed until you passed out. Do you know how it feels to lose your mind? I feel so crazy. I cant stop this I
cant control it anymore. I'm so empty and so weak. I cant fight this anymore. I'm ready to let go. I'm ready to leave. Nothing
makes sense anymore and I'm just so fucking sick of it. There's nothing left to keep me from falling apart.For now I'll just
bottle it up smile and pretend it's all okay. I'm so tired of doing this.
I can't believe you havn't figured it out yet. You've been looking for so long. I dont know why it's too late now. She's
still there crying over you. She's still there fallen, broken, bleeding right where you left her.She's dying over you and
no one can save her. Walk away like you always do. Don't worry about her anymore. You've hurt her enough.
What is it I've become? Why am I the disapointment? I am the Bastard I am the Bitch of everyone I am The Queer I am the
Fag I am every thing that you hate I am everything that you wish you could kill I have become this thing this monster.....I
have become your worst enemy and my own....I am what I hate most about this world. What have I done to you? Why has this happened?
I am everything you have ever hated I am your worst fears brought to life I am everything you have ever cared about I am every
lie you ever told I am every heart you have ever broken I am every person you have ever fucked I am everyone you have ever
killed...I am every tear you have ever cried I am scar you made apon your body I am every smile that has crossed your lips.
I am every girl you never kissed. I am every thing you wish you could be. I am every scream you never heard. I am your past
I am your future. I am your life I am your death....I am your own private suicide... I am your own mind turning against you
I am what has driven you to this...I am your own thoughts...You did this......We did this...I'm sorry it had to be this way...